Non-Linear Success

What would you do when your in your late 20's and wondering what more could this life offer to you?

I'm your regular office worker with the right amount of dreams for myself and my family. However, I am a little clueless of where I am standing right now. If you graduated as an achiever during your younger years, so full of ambitions, then end up being in my position, would you be glad?

Being ungrateful is the last thing I would feel right now. I am more of comfortable sitting here today. But, some days I cannot stop myself, at some point of time, I replay old dreams, old goals in my head.

I used to fill my yellow paper with essays of hope and nobody knows I how direly wanted to become someone my home town would put in a pedestal. The trophy child. The bright child with equally bright future.

But how about now? Do I still carry that pride in my chest? Or do I chose peace over the glamor and secular meaning of success?

I Miss Your Weakness, But I Loved Your Strength More

I have a sister, younger, small,
Who once would mirror my every call.
My dreams were hers, her heart was mine,
She followed close, step in line.

I was her shield, her wiser hand,

The tallest tree where she would stand.

But storms would come, and I would break,

My mind, my will, a heart’s ache.

I dropped my books, lost in the dark,

While shadows dimmed her once, bright spark.

Yet never once did she retreat,

She built her strength beneath defeat.

I miss her tears, her gentle cries,

Her need for me, her seeking eyes.

But now she stands, unbowed, unshaken,

A fierce new flame from what was taken.

The tables turned, I learned to rise,

Chasing dreams I saw in her eyes.

She passed the boards, her victory song,

Yet somehow made me feel more strong.

We cut the chains our bloodline bore,

We break the curses at the core.

I miss your weakness, sister dear,

But love your strength, it pulled me near.

Fly high, my heart, yet stay you close,

The one who fell, who now arose.

Your wings remind me, evermore,

I miss your weakness…

but love your strength more.

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 Psalm 25:6

"Remember your mercy O Lord, and your steadfast love, for they have been from old."

The Lord's mercy is saving us from what we deserve.

The Lord's grace is gifting us what we don't deserve.

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 Psalm 23:4

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; Your and your staff, they comfort me"

As always true, the Lord is our Shepherd. This world may lead us to dangerous roads. But our Lord, will always bring us back to the righteous path. The world may be dark, but our Saviour, our Shepherd is our Light.

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If You Fall

by: JJ Heller

You are a house that's broken down
You are a house that's burning
And everything in me wants to run
But that's not love

If you fall, I fall with you
If you hurt I feel it too
Even if my heart turns black and blue
I will love you

I planted seeds down in the ground
Not every one is growing
When I am tempted to give up
I choose love

If you fall, I fall with you
If you hurt I feel it too
Even if my heart turns black and blue
I will love you

Beauty and light will fight for you
Goodness will rise
It shines for you

If you fall, I fall with you
If you hurt I feel it too
Even if my heart turns black and blue

If you fall, I fall with you
If you hurt I feel it too
Even if my heart turns black and blue
I will love you
I will love you

Lyrics by: Musixmatch

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Ordinary Days

by: JJ Heller

It's the sunlight through the curtains
Morning pushing back the night
It's your faces in the kitchen
Little moons of borrowed light

On your tiptoes always reaching
For something bigger than you are
It's holding you and knowing
That I've caught a shooting star

I know it won't always be like this
Eyes are open, I don't wanna miss

These ordinary days
These ordinary days
In a million little ways
You make me wanna stay
In these ordinary days

It's the way you feel the music
Spinning like the falling leaves
You are poetry in motion
And you want to dance with me

I know it won't always be like this
Eyes are open, I don't wanna miss

These ordinary days
These ordinary days
In a million little ways
You make me wanna stay
In these ordinary days

Oh, the days are moving slowly
But the years go by so fast
Let me linger in these moments
Before they turn into the past
How I want to make them last

These ordinary days
These ordinary days
In a million little ways
You make me wanna stay
In these ordinary days

These ordinary days
In a million little ways
You make me wanna stay
In these ordinary days
In a million little ways
You make me wanna stay
In these ordinary days

Lyrics by: Musixmatch

KALAKIP NG DALANGIN

by: Julie Abinsay

Kung mundo'y dinaragsa

Ng bagyo, ng sakit, ng luha
Makangingiti ka pa ba?
Di naman halata nakatago diba?

Chorus1
Pa'no manalangin?
Kung ang dilim kapiling
Mananalig? Tuyo na ang damdamin?
Yayakapin, dama’ng hapdi at lamig...
Paano nga ba lalapit?
Pa'no madadama ang init?

Verse 2
Kahapon Ikaw ay nangako
Na ngayon, ako'y sasamahan Mo
Maging ang bukas ay hawak
Di ako iiwan, ni pababayaan man

Chorus 2
Kalakip ng dalangin
Dilim ay mapapawi
Nananalig, panatag ang damdamin
Yayakapin, sa bisig Mo walang hapdi't lamig
At Ikaw ay lumapit
Dama ang initng pag-ibig

Bridge:
Ngumiti ka pa rin
Umawit ng buong damdamin
Unos at bagyo, sakit at lungkot
Kanyang papawiin, papagaanin

Coda:
Kalakip ng dalangin
Ako'y nananalig

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HANDOG

HANDOG

Words and Accompaniment: Julie Abinsay

Music: Klaris Abinsay

First performed at Mt. Peniel Tarlac,

Te Doi Gloria Music Fest, Youth Camp, ECC December 2019

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Maraming beses na akong nabigo

Maraming beses na akong sumuko

Pero kailanman 'di Ka lumayo

Kamay Mo'y iniaabot

II

Doon sa kalyeng walang dumaraan

Ako ay Iyong sinasamahan

Kadilimam man ang kasalubong

Liwanag Mo'y patuloy na handog

Chorus:

Kaya't ako'y titingala

Pasasalamatan ang Iyong mga gawa

Handog ko sa'Yo ang buhay ko

Ako'y bumabangon para lamang sa'Yo

Bridge:

Kaya't salamat, binigay Mo ang lahat

Aking papuri ay hindi man sapat

HANDOG MUSIC ACCOMPANIMENT

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